love/hate

I'm getting ready for a lot of big changes in my life. I'm relocating to a different state, getting a new job, living in a different town, and I need to buy a new car. I'm so excited about the changes, but at the same time I'm SO stressed. Finding a new job is stressful, finding a new apartment is stressful, buying a new car is stressful, being an adult is stressful. I'm trying to enjoy the process so that I look back on this time with fond memories, but I don't think I can until everything is settled and done. I'm also really sad about leaving my current job. I love taking care of Ela, she is the sweetest, most precious baby in this world, and I know shes not going to remember this past year that I have spent with her and it breaks my heart. I have given so much of myself to her and I love her so dearly and in 3 months I'm just leaving. I'm going to cry like a baby the day I drive away, she has been such a precious gift in my life. But its time for me to move on with my life and get things together for myself, its time for me to find what I'm supposed to do on this earth. I need to be close to my friends and family again, I need to get my life back. I hate change and I love change. 

"Love writes a letter and sends it to hate.

My vacations ending. I'm coming home late.
The weather was fine and the ocean was great
and I can't wait to see you again." - The Avett Brothers

Ela

I have been living with my sister Lauren, and her husband Jered, for the past 9 months. I take care of my precious niece Gabriela during the day while Lauren and Jered are at work. I have enjoyed taking care of Ela and making precious memories that I will cherish for my lifetime. She is the most adorable, sweet baby in the world, watching her grow up has truly been the most important part of my life thus far. At 10 months old, she is into everything! Currently she is sitting on my bedroom floor with all the candles that she knocked off my bedside table and is putting her pacifiers and other little objects into the candles. I love watching her trying to figure things out and explore new things. Her recent hobby is to put her toys into the dogs water bowl in the kitchen, she finds it very amusing.

The weather has been changing here in Georgia and its finally beginning to feel like fall! Which means I can finally go outside again without melting! I have been taking Ela to the park and walking a few miles everyday, its good to get out of the house and exercise and Ela loves watching other people and seeing the dogs play in the dog park. She also loves to swing in the playground when we are done walking. I tried running with her while she was in the jogging stroller, but I found that it hurts my back to run without moving my arms... So I'll stick to walking with her and running by myself.

Shes a healthy baby that loves to exercise! A girl after my own heart :)

Lets get this thing going....

This is my first official blog! How exciting... I decided to start this blog to document the things going on in my life. I have never been good at keeping a journal, my hand always cramps up and I lose them, so I thought  I would give blogging a shot. I'm pretty sure my mother will probably be my only follower, but oh well!

I want to be able to just put down my thoughts, ideas and passions into this blog so that I can look back on it in the years to come. My thoughts are almost always random, my ideas are usually short lived, but my passions are extreme and never small. That's what passion is right? loving something so great and dreaming about it to the extreme?

So... here's to life, health and the pursuit of passion!